I'm reverting to old behaviors and bad working habits while I am missing John and Jet. Long days, working in the evenings, the brain has rev'ed up and doesn't have to stop for other things, so it's going full speed not just during the day but at night as well. Woke up with two key proposals in my head. Yeesh. No real exercise all week, just walking between buildings a lot. That's been fun, too, but different.
I guess it depends on your definition of "bad", but while they're likely good for the company they're definitely bad on me physically.
I'm getting a ton or two done and finally feel caught up on this month. But I'll be glad to get home and stay there for a bit.
Sometimes I will be having a meal or just doing a hallway talk with some of my co-workers and they'll be talking about how impressed they are that I actually talked with dragon a, b, or c about a pet peeve of theirs, and I'll shrug and say, "Well, I was terrified, but someone had to do it."
They're always surprised that I'm terrified, "But you LOOK completely calm and collected and you handled them really well..."
and I'll say, "But I thought I really lost it with Dragon C. I rose to the bait and argued with him about x, y, and z."
And they'll get all wide-eyed, "But Dragon C was utterly unreasonable and I thought you did great getting what he really needed out of him and following up."
And I'll blink, "But... uhm... oh." Silence for a bit, "Thank you for the feedback, it's good for me to know when I did well."
"You did great."
I'm STILL terrified, but I did great.
Life is weird, sometimes...
Okay... and I *really* amused someone when I said that I was intimidated by my own husband, while trying to bring up something at work about something technical. It's not that John is purposefully intimidating, in fact he's one of the friendliest principle engineers (nearly the highest level you can go on the just-engineering track) there are, but his sheer competence requires a certain level of preparedness from me when I go in with a technical question.