April 24th, 2008



I hate not being able to breathe.  The cold last week, high tree pollen counts, my asthma, and just generally being stupid about staying up late in order to indulge in my writing binge has made it so that I'm coughing everywhere.  Bah.  And I have my allergy shot treatment appointment this afternoon to make sure that the whole series is actually helping.  It's costing several thousand dollars, so it had better be improving things.  And now I'm all confused as to whether or not it has improved anything.

I suspect that if I hadn't had the cold I'd be in much better shape, but... grumble, humbug.

I've been mildly cranky and poor Jet has had trouble understanding why it is that Momma just isn't in the mood to play.  Last night, he cried when he thought about leaving me alone in the house when he was going to go play with his friends and he couldn't understand when I gently said but I wanted to be alone, that I loved him, lots, and that he should have fun with his friends and not worry so much about leaving me in the house alone.  It took a little while, but he ran off to play and seemed very happy about playing with the other kids.  So that's all to the good.

Tonight we'll go to a knitting meeting together.  That will help, I think.  He loves to knit, and is quite good at it, now.  So it should be quiet for both of us.


The breathing test shows that I'm at about 65% of my theoretical lung capacity. So I'm almost missing one lung. 70% is functional, but not great, as there's a real risk of fibrosis if it's left at that level. 70% is where there aren't direct asthma attacks, but when a cold comes, it can more easily become bronchitis. Which, pretty much, is now the case. And, yes, I'm below that mark at the moment, so I'm having measurable problems.

The doctor's opinion is that my asthma, while it may be symptomatically good, i.e. usually I'm functional. It's still not under control. *sigh* So he wants me to go on a series of meds in conjunction with the allergy shots, and, hopefully, longterm, we'll get enough function back for me to have more lung capacity. But, good for my engineer's soul, he's doing it as an experiment. I go on the meds for a month, we'll measure at the end of that month. If there is significant improvement, then we'll stick with what he's given me for a while, and check again when I'm on maintenance with the shots.

I'm glad he was willing to work with me on that, as I hate feeling dependent on medications. Ah well.