March 20th, 2009



I've watched The Watchmen, Kill Bill 2, read five books of Fullmetal Alchemist, and spent nearly two days playing Onimusha 2 before I realized that the latter is something I usually do doing depressive cycles, when my brain won't let go of something in the background and some part of me is desperately trying to overlay something else on top. Violence and adrenaline or endorphine-charged usually works best, and that worried me a little...

Until I woke up Wednesday morning with a really bad headache and it just got worse... okay, I was a little hung-over from the Mom's Night Out on St. Paddy's day and I never do THAT either; but Jet had had a cold in the previous week where he got a big fever and headache for a day and then just coughed and hacked his way through the rest of the next week. I was so relieved that it was just a cold that I couldn't believe it. MUCH better just feeling physically down from a cold than the depressive cycles.

I celebrated by watching four episodes of Haibane Renmei and Spirited Away and reading old issues of Scientific American. I guess it wasn't depression, it's just that I'm in full-speed input mode and knitting and biking on the exercise bike as I watch and read.

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