Liralen Li (liralen) wrote,
Liralen Li

Heartache and Happy Birthday Jet

Apropos of very little other than the fact that I've been stressed and mildly depressed by the coincidence of lots of bad stuff happening to people I know about...

Ceej's account of her miscarriage and loss of her twins on the 29th of January hit me pretty hard. And the main reason it hit me so hard was that I clearly and distinctly remember in the 20th week of my pregnancy with The Fish (who later grew into Jet) that we went for an ultrasound. I remember "seeing" every perfect pearl strand of his spine, his vigorous kicking and headbutting of my belly, the fast flutter of his heart, and the human shape of him eventhough he was no bigger than John's hand. And that horrible background question of "what are we going to do if the amino turns up a problem?"

I admit, after reading her account, I have more patience for Jet, now. I hug him more. I admire the miracle that has lent him to us, and take a more fierce hold of the responsibility of raising him to be as capable and joyful and loved as we can...

Jet's birthday is today. He's decided that his "real" birthday isn't until "the big cake comes out", which is Saturday. So while it's his birthday today, he has declared that he's not REALLY five until Saturday. *grin*
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