We also came out of there with shorts, swim suits, and a big stack of glossy, heavyweight photo paper by Epson. Wow, the difference it makes on my printed photos!! I am very, very glad of it. So odd how different a picture can look on glossy paper versus plain paper, and how much more it seems like a 'picture' from a photo shop.
The conversation in email has gone apace, and I feel better for knowing more about my reality and more about what I feel is true and what is actually false. whew. Being judged hurts, but it really gives me much greater incentive for making more and more of my self-worth and self-assessment internal rather than relying on external judgements of how worthy I am. Now isn't *that* a generalistic mouthful?